Friday – January 2, 2009 – 3 h 37 am

Sometimes you can't go back
Why'd you have to go and make a mess like that
I just have to say before I let go

Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so
…
'Cause what you did was low

She still hasn’t called. In a way, I’m not really that surprised because after all, I have always been the one crawling back to her, trying to fix things, but not this time. If she can’t even do the tiniest step towards me, it clearly shows she wasn’t a friend in the first place and she doesn’t care. I wasn’t the one who destroyed our friendship. It was probably dead a long time ago because she let it died and I was too blind to see it.

I want to pretend I’m okay, that it doesn’t hurt, but it does. I care a great deal about my friends – all of them - and to have one treating me like I’m less important than trash is really upsetting and it hurts me. But now I know exactly where I stand with her and I know it can only get better in time. It’s not the end of the world; it’s only the end of a friendship I used to hold dear in my heart.